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looking at my reflections notes — time to get back ‘in’ — into ‘it’
I like it — Kim says my writing doesn’t make any sense
formalism — form writing — no meaning — no sense
non sense non meaning
where should the present go?
what I write now or will write
the things written in the present of the Reflections writing of (how long ago?) —
those written when writing faded back into these notes — these notes now that aim back or lead back to that text —
this text (perhaps) Derrida on presence — names that flow through — in and out of the writing — my writing — this writing
the question of chronology that keeps coming up and that I can’t and never will be able to answer —
is the chronology of the writing part of the writing — in traditional writing it is not —
it is the structure that gives order — but is chronology part of the structure of this {writing / book} —
the problem of getting outside of the {writing / book / text} to impose structure
what structure — the possibility of a structure imposed by time —
which is different from that used in the Reflections writings although time played an important part
weave of {reading / writing} — what goes where
the trace — reverberations of sounds
a slip — sliding — into
a dizziness —
the buzz of ventilators — where am I — at work
the trace of what unconscious line — note Derrida’s note p35
ideas and subideas — an idea — the researched book — spend time in the library looking things up — take any starting point
layers of knowledge — fragments — parts — of what whole
hole
layers of text — the previous derives from Derrida mentioning Hegel’s encyclopedia — my ideas for an encyclopedia
what I was going to write was the difficulty I have reading Derrida —
time / matter
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p69 — the pyramid and the pit — male / female 69 — (cancer)
life / death — 6 9 — pit and pendulum pen
fragments floating flotsam
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where — fit it — the fit and the
fit into the pit
into it