3/12

thinking — don’t feel like doing anything
was going to go to the mall to get some magazines but don’t really feel like doing that — the idea is for some sort of major collage type of work to get me moving and thinking — but I have so many things to do and don’t know if I want to spend $30 on material when I have so much
but the idea is for something different from all the magazines that I’ve been cutting up — something that would work in multiple modes — possibly put a tape in the box — or a list of music to play while reading (reading?) the (book?)
what do I want to do
I just sit and give myself a headache

and there are so many things to do — assembling cataloging etc
doing something with magazines might be a way of orienting and disorienting myself

something to do at work and at home
as escape from all of my collections etc but also a parallel work

/still can’t get unwound or wound up
whatever it might be/

the art works are more depressing than anything because I can’t do anything with them — the comments from the dada book on the art being for the artist
but is that really true

can it be
can I make it that way

I enjoy it but

the hall shelves need working on

<i> need to put the wood pieces away in manner that they won’t be broken up etc
<i> need some better filing system
<i> need some better system of drawers etc

possibly I should put the drawer cabinets in the attic or remake them in the attic

<i> need to rearrange the attic — what pleasure or pain is involved in this

possibly I just need a plan or something

the books that I should just throw away or something — there’s no sense in waiting for some sort of recycle