12/4

Rauschenberg and Sorrentino — try to get some style influences

plugging away at things to do but not able to get into the music things — afraid to get the DAT deck running but I’ll have to do that today

digital masturbation
flesh images — can’t get online to download but I have so many

vulvas and ulvas — flow into Robbe-Grillet etc — words that take on ‘life’ and ‘meaning’ etc — proliferate the quote marks

feelings of vagueness etc — I should write the letters that I’ve been meaning to write — why is it that I’m totally isolated is it me or them — do I really want to try to communicate

just sit around with the animals - dog’s nose in my hand - needing attention etc someone to throw a stick
I need to jerk off
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