10/2 p5

reading eating drinking coffee — go shopping today & get some video tape — obsolete media — tape will soon be gone —

sudden urge — temptation to buy dianne baker art — (another pen dying — is this paper bad on pens?)

temptations to buy

regrets — not being able to photograph women —
PURPLE FASHION
partly exposed bodies — breasts — pubic hair —

not sure if i want to go back to sleep —

houston 7:40 AM

this was to be my self help journal
this vacation to try to sort things out —
i need to get <out of?> repeating thoughts — mental loops — especially the bad thoughts — writing helps — keep writing and working —
get bad thoughts out — stupid worries like mitzi killing one of the cats — it seems i always have some negative feelings like that — anxiety — what — sublimated — objectified — fears of fire etc — get them out — write them down — move on —
take up meditation —
i need to find a spot i can get away and meditate — think and work out art etc —
concentrate for a while and then do an art sessions —
empty out — calm down — then work —

yoga book

“positive thinking and meditation help you remove negative thoughts and still the mind, ultimately transcending all thoughts” —

RELAX EXERCISE BREATH EAT MEDITATE
RELAX ENTIRE BODY

MEDITATION MASTURBATION