11/28

browsing around the web
pat cadigan — no new novels — images of an older pat cadigan

it’s hard to think of people growing old

i’ve grown old
too old maybe

sorting through papers etc — the feeling that i’ll never do anything
make this part of doing something — writing about doing nothing
do anything

i should be doing art instead of sorting through material

sorting ‘through’

but i need to get rid of things
this year’s art — a few notes on getting rid of things
cutting out book pages
but what will i do with what i’ve cut out
a collection of things

write something on overcollecting

too many of each thing to do anything with
too many architectural drawings
too many book pages

politics or not
blog or not
i started to look at some papers to do some writing but couldn’t get started
if i don’t want to then don’t
i don’t know what there is about these desires that i have and don’t have
it should be obvious what i want (to do)

make a decision to get rid of the newspapers that i’ve collected
just recycle them — don’t look at them

meditate and exercise and do what i think i should do or feel like doing
make the web site an art site and keep the politics out until i’m ready