5/11

reading Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind
plus and minus of this type of thinking

i am i

had a pretty good weekend
my work is slower than i would like but that has to be accepted

the wind in the trees

the intensity of music (hawkwind)
i know i want something like that in art

it needs to be music or video — possibly writing

i think i’m on the wrong track working with books and papers and things
i should just get rid of all of that and concentrate on computer work

whenever i think of doing something like taking apart a book or another piece of electronics i should go to the computer


it’s so difficult to get rid of things
i keep coming back to them
i think of getting rid of them and i decide to keep them for a while
make an assemblage or something
but that wouldn’t have the intensity that i’m looking for

get rid of all the notebooks and papers that don’t fit in the house
get rid of the storage as soon as possible

but
do i want to go with my recent idea of working a large autobiographical assemblage
do i want to keep a lot of things to work with
i’m thinking now that paper collages and notebooks aren’t going to go anywhere
but i’ll have a hard time packing up all the notebooks and getting rid of them
and i don’t really have to — i need to narrow things down enough that i can fit them in the house

i could get rid of all the small picture frames — things like that