4/9 p2

started copying notes from last october
yesterday (or day before) watching a hawk moth in the cross vine — it seemed like it was only 2 or 3 months ago
depressing

<10/2/12
“WEB — go with the first page that i worked on last month — seems impossible — it was actually at the end of august —
disgust —“>

from old notebooks — a lot of things i could scan
so why do i just sit and think about my depression when i’m not really depressed and i could be doing things like scanning papers and photos
everything seems a waste of time so i waste my time

it was last october that i was reading the tschumi — almost 6 months —

depressing

<2/2/17 — it’s more depressing now nearly 4 years later — as i approach another birthday>

<3/9/18 and now another year>