6/18

two more days to get ready to vacation
rain in the forecast so maybe i should plan on doing something indoors — like what
?bring a sketch book and draw — make web layout designs
?bring pens and ink —

so much music — i go on collecting CDs knowing they’re obsolete — but there will be players around for a long time
the subject keeps coming back to what am i going to do with my things
(the record company (see right) has a lot of things that look interesting — but may not be — should i start taking some chances

a part of my hearing aid is stuck in my ear so i can’t hear well so i’ll skip the coffee shop — coins said that anyway and i have too many things to do —
alternations of mood — there is no reason to be positive — failure seems likely — but what does that mean —

i worry about things — the pets while i’m away especially — the house — but something terrible can happen while i’m here —
a sense of impending doom — perhaps it’s my death — looming over me — the weavers of fate —
to loom - to bloom — flower - flows —
my back aches —
it will be hot so i’ll take the dogs out early — i need to go shopping
tomorrow i go to the doctor —

how much time remains —
how many things to do — remainder[s]
reminders
to recollect
to collect — constant change

i hope i didn’t damage my ear — what would i do without sight or hearing — what would life be — i’m too old to learn sign language — i’m not good at hand movements —

tired — i can sleep for a few minutes — it’s getting light out —
(flowers — the glow of the lantana in the evening light)

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