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death & ashes
my ‘remains’ mixed with the pets — flow past where i grew up — areas i loved — memories of bridges — terror of one of them — (my bridge dreams — dreams of bridges) — the ending of FW — outgoing — the ‘mouth’ of the river (what does that derive from — seems more like an asshole — the sewer plant — shit plant — asshole of the city — where i worked 20 years — what dust would reach the lake — mired in the mud — mixed with the pollution — what remains —

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remains of rockets — rainbows — >

ROADS 383 LAST PARA — PRACTICAL NOTE

HIGH FREQUENCIES

i don’t like high frequencies

sky beautiful shades of blue this evening — the moon in a haze of light clouds looks blue —
gold sky in the west — the stones look beautiful in the evening light

the blue glaze of the flower ‘frog’ on the table

FINISHED ROADS BOOK
RECEIVED BRAKHAGE BOOK

was listening to music and stopped and everything sounds oddly quiet — my ears buzzing — (what is it that buzzes — the sound of blood? — ) — the sounds of silence — i don’t have my hearing aids in

another not very productive day
computer work and nothing else is too difficult

my plan was to have all my projects organized before vacation

thinking of death and ashes — should i try to write something for L’s instructions if our galveston trip is a tragedy

i can’t get outside of the work and get organized — i was ready to start work on the book database but that should wait

tomorrow i’ll work in the studio —
i should be able to finish that in a few hours