3/18

shoulder still hurts — on the verge of a very irritable mood — the dogs don’t understand why they’re not walking —it’s very warm upstairs — but the dogs are a constant pain downstairs — i want to do something — but as soon as i move the pain comes back

reading yage letters this morning

3/19

still pain — my hand feels numb — i can’t hold the pen — tiny letters —
reading through burroughs — yage and roosevelt …

3/20

my fingers still don’t work —
rats in the house again — problems that have to wait
reading last words …
another day out of my life — i don’t want to do anything — not even listen to music — i should be able to sort some things —