6/7

i keep getting close to a bad mood — anger or depression — i should be good — evening on the deck — jeannine with a big smile — (but i’m concerned about leaving them for a week — always worried about things like that) —
mosquitos —
dog bark — the bird sounds fading out in the evening — light fading —

what — life fade out — into what — remains —
ordered a book about k acker — people who did so much in so little time — and i — nothing — what is is —
sunset — visions of young women — something lost — a long time ago — or not — there has been nothing wrong with my life overall — i lived — there is no reason to regret leaving nothing [behind]