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i arrange things in one software but then it loses its formatting in another software
what software should i use —
i’ve spent hours trying to decide if i should get creative suite or give up creative suite
i gave it up after years of non-use — but now i think maybe i need indesign

impossible to decide
analysis paralysis —
people make decisions — i make some decisions — but other things paralyze me —
should i go on with this text
if i do there are an infinite number of decisions i have to make (would need to make (what is necessary — what does ‘to need’ mean — needs - desires)
but infinity is impossible — there are infinities inside of infinities
one decision leads to infinite other decisions

should i go on with this project
should i give up and do something i enjoy
do i enjoy this
is it worth doing
is it worth doing is a good question
but i don’t even know if i enjoy it — how can i not know if i’m enjoying something
— there a many i’s — not a split personality but split personalities
i decide something then change my mind
who is this i that decides (what was that i that decided or couldn’t decide)
what is this mind
who changes it —
what happens when a mind changes
do i have a mind
am i a mind
a body with a mind
a mind with a body
very often these long sequences of text lead into some sexuality — a vague horniness