11/8

think about life and you find death —
feelings of fear — of being lost - of getting lost — i need to go for skin procedure tomorrow — how early do i need to leave — will i have a hard time finding the place — i'm already anxious —
confusion - anger
worried about foley having to wear a coat all day — the yard is hazardous to the hounds — there are things that could be done but they would be too difficult —
fear anger confusion
can i write — this — do i want to (or just give up — quit - stop)

PM
basal cell procedure tomorrow — i’m still nervous — took clonazapam this morning and afternoon — more tonight

went looking for stones — not a very good spot but i picked up a lot of things that weren’t worth picking up and aren’t worth keeping but i’ll dump them out with the other stones — quite a few fossils — something that’s probably concrete but might be some sort of conglomerate — none of the nice dark rocks i found a few months ago — there are a lot of rivers and streams to explore — i’ll try to get out a couple of times a month —
decided to make the large display just a stone display — i want to design some stands and bases for the stones — maybe some jars — make some trays to put in the drawers — i could also put jars in the drawers but i may have to reinforce the bottoms

i’m not writing what i’ve been thinking of writing — an actual beginning — a blog entry style work — start with fragments —
first make a layout template — by putting things on the page i might get some better idea of what i want to do — (i want to eat — i’m overweight)

pinterest can be totally inspirational so why don’t i use the inspiration to do something