8/30 p2

listening — BF — dismissed it at first but today (track 4) i find it interesting again — like the sound of a fire with some machines in the background — maybe it’s good background sound — (is it music — what is music — does it matter)
difficult to listen all the way through — what environment are these sounds for other than what i’m doing now — just sitting and listening —
milko kelemen ‘composé’ — actually i like the BF better —

feeling rather shitty about not doing things — it should be easy — just do something — just work on the notetext and see what i have — look at papers — clean the bathrooms — paint some wood —

look at the note files and make notes — try to figure out what i need for colors etc — textual ‘clues’

sliced up some of the olive wood that i got from L— enjoyable work as long as the bandsaw doesn’t bind — seeing the grain patterns is interesting
(this is something to write about — seeing things develop — photos etc — taking things apart —
processes)

kelemen — archetypyon — pretty good orchestral music — but writing music for orchestra seems rather silly at this point — the end product is a digital file — it could be made all digitally

listening to music i glance at my ‘sticky notes’ with a feeling of despair — i don’t do things —

finished an email to RK — i should put those things into the notebooks

i should at least get down my ideas about writing and text etc — write out what i should do without actually doing it —