10/12

notebooks — 6/2012 — the center notes — i like them — i look at how i dealt with the notes at different times and find what i like and do that through all the notes

have been doing pretty good getting rid of some weight but it’s getting more difficult — the constant desire to snack — to grab a handful of nuts (why is ‘handful’ spelled with one ‘l’ (i use the apostrophe but not the comma - i should get rid of the apostrophes and use a symmetrical mark)

listening to carrillo and liking it drinking too much coffee trying to keep myself from eating too much working on notes from january 2014 — a long set —

notes jan 2014 mitzi’s death — i have a hard time avoiding tears now — 7 years later — i was depressed about pet care all that month — i’m depressed about pet care now — i hope it doesn’t signal a problem with Krissy —

from 1/19/14 — a dream this morning — we were on our way to a concert (who was with me kept changing — mostly it was L) — stopped at an old garage type building — we were allowed to take things — i don’t remember what it was or why we had access — there were a lot of things i found — small cabinets - tools - a nice oak box — the objects kept changing — when we left it was too late for the concert and we didn’t know how to find where we were supposed to go — the setting was an old residential type area but the streets around were busy — we asked someone how to get out but his answer was confusing — we went back to the building where the car was and i woke up with a feeling of pleasure from finding nice things and fear because we were lost

earth is a pretty planet but how much of this is {a / the} result of life — (all my fossil stones —) —
i’m going to die soon — it doesn’t matter how long life goes on — but it would be better if life changed to life forms that don’t kill to live — (or just eat microorganisms —)