5/27/23

irritable this morning — a dream of packing things — i needed to leave a hotel room but none of my things were packed — i wasn’t dressed and couldn’t find underwear — my things were just in a large pile — anxiety
did things yesterday but doing things makes me think of all the things i haven’t done —
in another dream i was thinking of ‘i think therefore i am’ and on waking couldn’t remember the french for ‘therefore’ and realized i’ve lost nearly all the french i knew — depressing —
weather — humid — depressing
forgot to put water in the coffee maker — i do that at least once a week — irritating and scary —

TODAY — photos — write about the collections —
fresh water mussels — endangered — zebra mussels — overwhelming — the phenomena of life — disgusting —

irritation depression disgust fear —
make some diagrams of 4 word groups — how words relate —

PHOTO ART & REDO what i have on the web

copied some quotes from drawn and quartered

transcendental meditation <transcendental irritation> transcend trance send dental transcendent dent mental trace meditate distaste dental med

SUBJECT - PORN — sex should involve the mind — the visual sense etc (relate to duchamp) — mind and body — the senses not just the organs —

end — i didn’t get to the end — send end trans send trans end —
trans pose — pose — positions — erotic poses — compose — compose erotics eros c’est la vie — eros is a rose —

letters — photo art — shells —
remembering lake champlain when i was young — clear water — then it got dark — it’s cleaned now since GP pulp mill shut down — zebra mussels are killing off the native ones but they filter a lot of water — memories of the water — water dreams still water flowing water

<seeing gar fish and eels and rock bass in the water —>

my ideas for a water video — i would like to be able to make cinema from dreams and deep memories — the water within — within you and without you — submarine dreams — tangerine dream — liquid days — ice in the spring —