8/12

up early — 3:30 — nearly 6:00 working on notes but i’m wearing out — need to get the dogs out soon

bad dreams — another of the dreams where i’m remodeling in plattsburgh — our house or rita’s or some combination —
last night's dream was at rita’s (actually a non-existent house that was hers in the dream) — there was a water leak from the attic — then it seemed that an electrical fire was involved and an electrician was needed —
there was a wall that needed finishing and that i had put aside — i wanted to get it finished — there were a lot of details like sheetrock work and wood work —
i woke up thinking about our house and all the mistakes we made that i’m not sure if we’ll be able to correct without an electrician and who we could hire to do the type of electrical work that’s needed

worked on one of the note files that belongs at #3 in the random order — it got passed over for some reason that i can’t figure out from the database notes — i also want to move a couple of months up in the work order (will i need to add another path for the order that the months are put up so that it would be easier to find new work
possibly change the work order to get something from every year
random decisions need to be modified — the just get a starting point and a fall back condition

on my inability to make decisions — abulia —
there is no reason or justification for anything
anything that’s done requires other things to be put aside — at my age - some things will never be done — a lot of things

a dead empty day — Foley broke a toenail so i need to watch him — didn’t sleep enough last night and haven’t been able to sleep today — over tired and depressed

write about the dream theme of remodeling or construction — of unused or unremembered rooms —
chambers of the mind gone to sleep — space and storage — house of leaves —