8/2

tripping last night — beginning to wonder why bother — heightened sense?
question — but how to answer
I always need a beyond — a reason

why do I not write

surrounded by books — arranging and rearranging — a little Kafka creature with his books

8/4

slept all day yesterday — on The Rainbow — get tired — think it’s Lawrence that tires me — read Amerika last week — almost all in one night
took a lot of pictures Tuesday at the lake shore
skimpy notebook for all summer

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