6/10

looked at films I made — not good — ideas didn’t turn out the way I wanted them — some possibilities but will probably never pursue them



notes from quite a while ago — <they> were left stuck in here for copying
speculations
pain in back from moving
nothing has been written
diary into book
get back into book
box full of notes — many to burn — one more week <and we> should be in new house — <i> still haven’t withdrawn from school
back ache
feelings of anger not so prominent lately — the activity of moving


still the voice at night at work asking when I’ll finish or be there or be done — lately its been more when I’ll be there — ‘when will Rocky get here” etc

jun 1980
6/80-4

3/21/19
deleted most of entry


note buying a house
some notes on school
the voice in my head

9/3/21
one of my many attempts to return to college — my interest in computer art led me to the college film studio — the apple computer wasn’t combatible with the college video equipment and i wasn’t able to do what i wanted with an 8 mm film camera — i made a couple of films attempting a kind of structural film — i may still have one of them
i dropped out of college several times — during my final year i just left courses without bothering to withdraw — gained me a few ‘e’s and prevented me from pursuing graduate school later — which was probably a good thing — i’m not sure why i kept trying college

feelings of anger all of my life — outbursts
9/3/21 write more on the voice in my head —


9/3/21 make a photo of my ‘studio’ and the garage black and white works — document