11/17

5 PM
<i'll> finish this notebook soon — seems to be dragging on like everything else — just write it away
stomach upset today — headache also — nervous again — may start taking tranquilizers again

11/18

did some work — not much — get irritated very easily — take some serax before bed — got some books from the library — the Cocteau book I’ve been thinking about — On Being — like the chapter headings - “on. . .” - also Opium — García Márquez No One Writes. . . — and Nadja in French and English — saw so many books in the French section that I wanted to read

total collapse this morning — slept from about 5 o’clock to 10 — nervous collapse after the test maybe — maybe just sick