6/30

differences in difficulty — as between Joyce where the words and sentences are difficult and someone who makes sense but is difficult in structure Robbe-Grillet perhaps and someone who is difficult to get through (Barth)

<who i read now and think of writing on>

what does it mean to be difficult or inaccessible — where does my writing fall or rise — my idea of writing for a small group — a scientific writing
how to write a book or how I wrote this book
narrative situations are something I’ve always avoided
but a narrative about my writing a book
(the immediate problem of tenses)

aspects of time

(refer to Bachelard
references
inside     outside)

( 3 and 4 )

what is this book
where does it start — the constant start and restart
say this book starts here as an attempt to write the story of the writing of a book as this book —

(decisions on punctuation have to be made)

but this is only a fragment of a larger structure — page 3612 of a set of notebooks — this is a narrative problem that has always bothered me — the way a part of a life has to be focused on — a fragment

so this small block of a writer’s life — my life
the writing of this book

these lines
these fragments

(the problem of separating — in a normal character narrative only certain elements are focused on — cf Gass on sex being a primary focus)
take any story and think of how much is missing — think about yourself now — your surroundings — all the descriptions that would be needed to describe what you see if you look up out of this book —