3/5

NOTES a nervous energy — what do I want to do — reading (at work) The Telephone Book — a nice looking book but I’m not really interested in Heidegger — but I

don’t feel like reading anything else
don’t feel like doing paperwork
don’t feel like looking at my notebooks

have to start getting organized (continue getting organized — I’m doing pretty good) — perhaps I will work on papers

10:40 AM
I want to buy another desk — have another work space to start on the Love/Sex novel which I should get working on

will I carry out the idea of a new novel starting at the first day of spring
should I stay with the same title

SHAME
I don’t want to get into this now
but
the idea that on the first day of spring — this year — I will start the novel that I’ve already started several times (several quotes could go here (Lippard Derrida)) — the question of physical and temporal beginnings — some aspects of hypertext or some moveable book
in reality there will be no beginning
the beginning will simply be a psychological barrier that has to be crossed
in the past I’ve usually approached this type of project with the idea of writing something each day — that is not necessary — (how is necessary defined in this type of ‘situation’)
the idea now is on the first day of spring to write a passage that will be the (psycho-physical) beginning of a novel to be called Shame and then to move backwards and forwards — taking passages from my notebooks and new writings and making a text out of them
should I plan on working for a year or developing a certain number of pages — or to work for a year and possibly develop a multi volume book
possibly work in 360 page segments and then at the end of a year edit all the material down to 360 pages — if I have that much material (I plan on working on the Love/Sex novel at the same time — (possibly several books could intertwine)