4/20

make a special section to outline all the things that I can or should do and make some priorities
I can’t seem to get myself moving on the simple things that have to be done

I don’t know why I just can’t schedule them and do them — I’d feel a lot better — but everything is an escape from something else

wind — birds in the wind
another day— i keep telling myself i’ll be productive — but — i can’t seem to get myself started — i know all the advice but just can’t seem to get past some initial barrier

art and the technical class —i want some change but have a distaste for the technical class — maybe the previous revolutionaries had a distaste for shop keepers & the early bourgeois — (what do i mean by previous revolutionaries)

differentiate different types of democracy
where was the bourgeoisie born —
what was the role of the german and italian states —
where will the technical class get it’s power (if that will be the next power class —
toward a better democracy (but it’s probably too late)

as soon as power is achieved it begins to die — but it lasts a long time — like old people in power — bourgeois heaven — austin — a dream that can’t come true — ? is it better to work in a manufacturing place and do my computer work at home — or to work with computers