7/14

thinking i don’t want to do anything but i can’t just not do anything—

can’t get away from negative feeling

not sure why i can’t just sit down for an hour and write something — arrange some pages — make some art —
too many different things i want to do — can’t make a ‘virtue’ out of it —
pick one thing to do and work at it until i finish or burn out — then do something else — try to keep all the things i want or think i want or think i should do aside —

this feeling of not having a life — only obligations — i need to take some control — insure that i have art time — sleep less

WRITE DOWN ALL THE PROJECTS & MAKE TO DO LISTS FROM THERE —
GIVE EACH PROJECT A PAGE OR SET OF PAGES IN THE CURIO FILE —
IF APPLICABLE WRITE THE REASON FOR EACH —

WHY DO I WANT TO DO A WEB SITE —

IS THE SITE MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE ART

IS MY ART PRIMARILY WRITING —

SHOULD BLOGS HAVE COMMENTS

‘BEING’ AN ARTIST — what does that mean — to be — does one have to ‘make’ art — can one ‘make’ art without ‘being’ an artist — i am a housekeeper who makes art —

ASSEMBLAGE — a gatherer — to collect — to hoard

arranging

arrange and photograph
states of —

moments in time
entropic & anti-entropic movement —

can there be an anti-entropy — everything is a stage in the process of maximum chaos — maximum randomness

to randomize —
to grid —

crystallization (haraway book i’ve had out for a long time) — (reading barthes — slowly —
quotes to copy —
redo the database to indicate books to quote from —
randomize reading — ?

i just don’t feel like working on the web site
no matter how important i think it is