7/19

yesterday discouraging — worked all day on bathroom ceiling and accomplished nothing — one board and i need to redo that —
the feeling i’m going to spend the rest of my life at this — and i can’t view it as art or anything like that — try to get some writing done — meta — remodel —
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looking at ETSY — more than 20000 pages of art —
it seems that there has to be a major cultural shift involved —
how much art is available and who wants it — local things vs things from all over the world — you can look and see how non-unique you are —
how does one criticize — what is schlock — kitchy trash — what is good --
go through a thousand pieces and rank them ?

took some video of the sky yesterday

thinking i should be able to do more — i keep thinking (realizing) that this morning time could be used better — a more directed writing if nothing else

can’t get the bathroom ceiling out of my head — trying to figure the slope — i have no sense of 3D space — never have — couldn’t judge baseballs — <i> was good at plane geometry but started to lose it when i got to more complex shapes — calculus — toroids —

glancing at lippard book — started book on suburbs — not sure if i’ll be able to reread the poetics of space —

the suburbs —

life long projects of transformation — i should be able to do something with the remod — make it into some sort of writing — i don’t dare to say ‘narrative’ — to break it out of narrative mold — make it into something that’s not a story —
‘narrative mold” — words bother me — they’re never right — if i look at phrases carefully there is always something wrong with them —

turning a phrase—

constantly shifting and rearranging the words

objects — not stasis —

i like things that are constantly changing — that’s one of my problems with visual art —
and the solution is easy now — with digital photography and web sites —