7/22

dream of niki last night — woke up almost crying — some long and complicated dream — not sure what happened but in the end my father had placed her at some house where she could be outside in a large field — free — i went to visit her but she didn’t pay much attention to me —

first time i remember much of a dream about her
maybe because of the deaths of two acquaintances recently

what am i avoiding — ART
WRITING
THINKING BEING
PRIORITIZATION

nothing comes first —
everything comes first —

any order is possible
no order is preferable —
(ambiguity of that line)
disorder chaos
meandering motions

too many things —
take tomorrow as art day — want to go to a coffee shop and sit — but also want to get my video clips onto disks
maybe should do that today — try to keep awake the entire day — (ready to fall asleep now although i slept a lot yesterday and went to bed early —

make a list of things to write about — keep expanding the list — add things in journal writing — consolidate them into some encyclopedia — as part of list and as subject — a list within the encyclopedia —
some of the items expanded into ‘articles’

(an interesting word with a lot of meanings) — (direct article — indirect)

art artist artificial
ornamental

i should be watching brakhage or some other type of video — morning early is a good time for that —
combine computer design / animation with video segments —
brakhage type things are probably more interesting than non objective things — but a lot of his best things are non-objective —
attention & attention span —
movies vs abstract video —
lumia type things — whitney type geometrics

FLASH MATH

what am i avoiding

ART
WRITING
THINKING
BEING