6/11

trans(something) of (what — (not values))
at war with myself (i don’t like the metaphors of war — lancelot) —
dis integrations —

notes bottom of 2008-140
electronics and racks — flashback of ideas for racks of art — overlaps with recent ideas of using grids of wood —> use metal structure along with wood (visual — sal mar thing — the movie 'pi')
transversal — across verses versions
conversions
perversions
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how many artists are written about or mentioned in a typical art history

write non-fiction with very little sentence structure — note things i dislike about typical — <line not finished>

thought: (while feeding the cats) i’m going to die content[ed] despite my lack of contentedness

my lack of content —

(list words that change meaning with accent)

i enjoy ‘playing with’ my notes —
i enjoy writing these notes

writing in 2 notebooks — enjoying things — i focus on what i don’t enjoy — but there’s nothing wrong with that —

psychic masochism —

looking at the notes — a constant expression of ‘need’ when i don’t need anything —

i don’t need to make art —
i don’t need to use the tools i have
i don’t need to do anything with the material i’ve collected
i don’t need ‘a system’ of ‘systems’ —

what i need to do gets done —