10/7

waves of ‘depression’ & whatever is my opposite —

10/10

gathering things for vacation
i have a hard time deciding which notebook to use — it seems like i’m wasting them — that there should be a better time to use them - something better to use them for

oliver and kayla to the vet today
have been making mistakes again recently — maybe it’s always pet problems that lead to these personal whatevers — it’s not memory loss in the dementia sense but forgetting things that should be habitual and making mistakes that have nothing to do with memory
i’m not taking anything except wellbutrin — maybe it’s the tension of getting ready to travel — and all the things i don’t like to do like getting hotel rooms — i enjoyed doing that when we traveled to texas — maybe it was just using the days inn catalog and the lack of choices to make

10/14

MEMPHIS
first night of vacation —
with bad news from home —
to bed early up early — nothing to write — another day on the road — today went by fast —

<travel — bad news about pets that nearly caused me to have a breakdown>

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