10/15

DALEVILLE (ROANOKE)
don’t need to get up early — i want to go to the museum before heading to reston —
things scattered all over the room — my body shaking again from the drive — last night at first i thought it was the highway traffic shaking the bed —
a long day today — shitty traffic in tennessee — virginia beautiful — but i couldn’t look around — too many trucks —
i’d rather be at home —

empty — no words — jeannine and jess are doing good —

it’s only 8:30 — 7:30 central time but i feel like going to bed — probably will be up early tomorrow —

i had planned on writing carefully in this journal (aside on my desire to not use things — to save them for something better

my mind cleaning trip

< not using things the greyhound notebook i was reluctant to use because my writing is so sloppy — i thought i would ruin it by writing in it
maybe i did — but i never do better>

< see 10/14 note>

10/16

DALEVILLE AM

it seems i’m succeeding in emptying out my head — but the garbage is probably still there in the background — (some dream last night about music after listening to sieuxie etc — the day dreams and night dreams)

vagueness — plans —
more coffee ? — time — check out —

i’ve been wanting to get away from the pets — it’s good to get away — but i want to be home with them & kim — kim’s birthday —

i keep writing nothing — can we just stay home a few years until the pets are dead — can we do without pets —

3/24/19 these sections probably should be reduced to a few lines

6/24/22 write about the notebooks — illustrate