3/21

the pain getting better — i still can’t look at the computer and i’m not sure why my hand isn’t working — i haven’t shaved and look like shit — i’ve done nothing — the greyhounds are bored — but it’s been raining anyway —

interzone p7?     last para
p81 mid — colors
p82    1st full para

reading this i should be laughing at myself — this hunched up wreck in the corner of the couch — i can’t get my hand & arm to work the pen — pent up pets —

84 next to last para

what is pain — can i work with the pain — it doesn’t seem like i could do permanent damage — i don’t want to go to the clinic — i’d just get a different med —

i should do something — or just wait it out —this could be an empty out time — i could listen to music — arab music — something ambient — muslimgauze? — another coffee — laziness — too lazy to put on some music

89 last before space
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cycling toward extreme depression — pet injuries —

3/22

interzone 150

“all the world’s a gallows and we all play with our parts”

still not functioning

COLLECTIONS — watches — set a monthly amount — antiques & junk shops in galveston — houston — shop
stamps — make pages-
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starting to get restless after a week of nothing (should i go to the clinic tomorrow) — (did i damage a nerve — will i be able to write —) cats want attention — i need to shower & shave — my body needs attention — what is wrong with my arm —