8/26_p2

problem — nothing satisfies me
nothing makes me feel good about myself
always out of place —
never fitting [in] — marginal?
or totally outside — not living — being born dead and living dead — almost everything alive is disgusting —
politics is disgusting — i should avoid it — there is no reason to care — draw lines
arrange stamps
arrange things — rearrange things

no arrangement is ‘right’ — this applies to everything — politics society art —
?make sounds — ? video
one project a year … etc
bullshit — everything is shit or will be shit —
physical deterioration — deterritorialization — maybe rotting is the opposite of deteriorating —
entropy — fractalization — crystalization — fragmentation

'melancholia' — <a> movie to think about

infinite sadnesssameness

everything = nothing —
nothing lasts — for an instant —
everything changes and is something else —