8/27_p2

a bit of stomach upset — wine last night — a couple of glasses = a slight inebriation —

the reflection of the fan in/on a spoon — kim reading 'quicksilver' — quicksilver messenger service — something about mercury — who do you love —

tides — there is a tide

there are tides — should i get more poetry to read — i had thought of the duncan books but never added them to a want list — (get more systematic about what i want — another database — (i can’t get everything into one airtable base without paying another $10 a month))

a brief rain — an old dog caught in the rain —
OLD AGE — we live with our bodies and are always ‘used’ to them (‘used to’ — interesting construct) and (we/us) — most of us are never satisfied — what would i have thought about a body like kim’s when i was 30 — we grow old together (advertisements about aging always show some conventionally good looking couple (male/female)) — her body has had the same [sexual] attraction for me (attractive to / for)
to fro back forth fort da — up and down
the rhythm of the fan — not a pleasing machine sound (record machine sounds) the sea sound —
water — audio video art — try everything and accept — end up with something or nothing — no difference
practice indifference —

this notebook was started 5/27 last year — 27
2 previous galveston trips and the long trip north — (words — ‘trip’ to travel to stumble — what is the relationship

take a dip
take a sip — my coffee

whips in von trier — i’ve never been into pain — pain is no pleasure for us

cunt lips

dipping into

digging into deep down

to go down