7/27

continue thinking about art
i can’t seem to get into any form but i can’t seem to reject any

can’t think my way through this
assemblage
computer work

writing
look back through my notes

i get agitated by the computer and think i should just give up art
but i keep circling
this indecision is getting very bad

i think — calm down and work with the programs
but there are other things i want to do
there is no reason to learn french or japanese

why do i need a reason for things
i could just sell the adobe apps and play with my collections
things to do
listen to music
read
work in the yard
enjoy the things i’ve collected
but the collection keeps coming back as something i need to do something with

but i don’t
people collect all kinds of things without any artistic justification

i haven’t done any art for years
so why don’t i just forget about it
something i thought i should do but never did

most people don’t even try
my family all collects things without some ‘goal’ other than the enjoyment of the objects