9/15

constant obsessions with things
fear of what’s in my body
i read about a bacteria we’re treating delilah for and start worrying about whether i’m going to get it and what it will do
worrying about delilah and what will happen to her

i haven’t worked on the web site
my writing isn’t worth working on
my art isn’t worth doing — i’m too lazy to get rid of it and get a new email address

stop thinking about it or keep thinking about it

collections & absurdity

all the papers i’ve collected
all the photo binders
all the photo frames

the frames were to be an art work — putting images and written pages into them and making a large wall piece — we don’t have wall space and i’m not into that idea any more — so it’s time to get rid of them — put them in a box and bring them to good will some of the photo pages were for written works — some sort of novel written on small photo sized pages and placed in the books some were to hold all the papers i’ve collected — but i don’t have time to deal with them — so i have thousands of papers piled in boxes that i won’t have time to look at and shelves of photo binders that i won’t have time to fill

i need to write — there is no art in all the papers — there is nothing that will help me with my art — i should just get rid of all of it — but i might as well keep it because right now it’s not worth the time that it will take to get rid of them

stacks of pages from art magazines
hundreds of pages from books

can anything be made of it — a few pages in some autobiographical writing —