9/22_p2

several times i’ve considered one of the season changes as a beginning of some sort of text — fall might be a good time to start another scan through my notebooks and try to make some sort of text (another text — different from the raw notebooks) — call it the end of my growing season — the fall of my life (although it feels like winter — and winter is probably a better analogy)

fall begins — to feel the fall —
the fell or fall of day —        <free fall>
?what to read

but i should be writing not reading

i fear the fall of — the faltering of —
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started an anti-anxiety drug last night — slept all night but may have been a coincidence —

PM
roubaud — i feel a lot of similarity
exceptions — my misanthropy
libraries — i have books — i haven’t used libraries for a long time — usually i’m disappointed — i’ve been thinking of looking at the local library — maybe for CDs —
recollection — orlando library — youngblood book — records from NYC library — lincoln center — 53 st library —