8/21

yesterday evening i felt better — thought i could do things —
this morning i dob’t want to do anything — the same as every morning — feed the dogs walk the dogs — then i’m too tired to go on — masturbate & sleep — the void [is] inside —

i need to call C & or J — the constant feeling of not knowing what to do —

8/24

purge — try to clean my mind — what is garbage — face — whatever failure i have —
evaluate — nothing is worth anything
nothing has value — choose — choice is arbitrary —

PROBLEMS — car battery in bad shape & i need it tomorrow — things bother me — my stomach churns —

COLLECTIONS — shells — i have too many things — i don’t have room to work — i don’t have coherent ideas & can’t take advantage of incoherence —

where am i going to put things — is anything worth doing — no — so why —
i should work on the floor — but i don’t have any clear floor space —