10/4

AM — just realized that it’s my father’s birth anniversary — a lot of birthdays in october —

feeling empty — a burned out shell — rotted inside — a husk —

letter from SJ about class reunion — i can’t remember names any more — i have no connection to my past and don’t want to — bad memories — misfit —

why do i have such a hard time taking a shower and doing a little house work —

PM
notes

3 long ones in a row — i’ll put this aside for the day then get started with the template — i should have a good idea of what i want to do now — which text gets colored etc — i’ll have to do that in order to find out what approach to take — if any

don’t feel like listening to more music — listless feeling —