9/24

up at 3:30 was awake for a long time — woke from a nightmare with a sore shoulder then started thinking about writing — specifically about RKs letter and some of the things that i wrote —

received tzadik records — will have a lot of ikue mori to listen to — will probably make me want to get back into music (although i never was there — (in[to]) music

too many things to do — how do i stop or slow down the swirl or spiral or vortex or whatever —

5:00 wide awake and half asleep —
too many things to think about — i’m confused— being old is shit
too many things i want to buy — more and more CDs i don’t have time to listen to
grab bag of watch components

at K’s campsite — a strange beetle — iron clad —
a large crayfish —
heat

getting up and wasting time — i should have projects ready to go — get up and get started — the feeling always countered by the question ‘why bother’ —
is anything ever accomplished
i should be writing — i am writing — should i be writing something else

thinking about what RK wrote — should i be writing in small fragments without concern for the page — maybe start another writing to go along with or along side of the notebooks — (what i’ve been using as center column text — this could be expanded — making use of the center and right columns

ikue mori — ‘class insecta’ — good titles —
keeping insects and small animals — aquaria — what is cruel and what is a good home — little creatures — recently worked on notes mentioned a snail i had for a long time

words from a song in my head — epica or nightwish — but i don’t know what the words are — symphonic metal music that i don’t understand the words — they are just interesting sounds —