11/15

from 9/7/81 — write something about all the time that i use thinking about organizing — compare the 1981 ideas to where i am now — try to trace ideas through the years — the way the rooms of the houses change uses — the constant search for the right studio space that has never been successful

started listening to music but didn’t like peter schat and didn’t feel like looking for something else

inserts to 9/7/16

11/16

too many things are wrong — i can’t get motivated — this is just a waste of time but i don’t have anything i want to do with my time — i don’t want to do any of the things i want to do — infinite abyss —
what can i do — i don’t like where or what i am but can’t change — nothing looks better
no drive no desire —
‘spend’ an entire life and nothing remains except garbage —
TODAY — do what — design a web page ? — work on the landscape —
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[re]start journal pages