3/23

another day of heavy depression — the dogs etc
i do things for my health but i don’t know why since i don’t have much desire to keep living —
maybe i’ll get out some pema chodron — the wisdom of no escape — it’s hard to believe that there’s any wisdom in anything — i can’t gain wisdom in a situation that there is no out of —

still working on notes and i don’t know why — the month is running out and my CC subscription — i have to decide —
i took some photos yesterday and i don’t know why
why not just stop — just look at the stones — just look at things — would that be wisdom — there is no reason to write about it or to try to convey it —

tired — don’t want to visit X — don’t want to do anything — take a nap and get ready for the day

3/24

working on notes — nervous today — irritable walking the dogs but it got better as we walked —

julee cruise — from twin peaks — not sure if i like it — i love it - i don’t really like this type of music — or do i — i’m tempted to buy an album