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4/28

1:40 AM — i can’t sleep — i’ve been awake since 12:30
thinking about writing — thinking about what i want to do
thinking it’s totally impossible — there is too much
but i can [maybe] get some pages done — it doesn’t matter how many

analysis paralysis
i think too much
there are too many things i want to do
this small amount of text i’m writing now
i need to choose a font — how —
it’s impossible there are too many choices — but it doesn’t matter — it’s arbitrary
that’s one of the problems everything is arbitrary

i want whatever this is to break down the concept of book — the book — bookness
i want a book that’s not a book — or do i want books
singular and plural keep alternating — it doesn’t matter if this is a book or several — as long as it’s something — anything
but i don’t want just anything —
these words can be arranged in an infinite number of ways — i could take one small bit of writing and make it into dozens of pages —
fonts colors images backgrounds grids
they can be in one large block of text — they could be small fragments of text ‘scattered’ on the page
blocks — blocks of text — this is important —

i want to break down the text structures of sentence paragraph etc — i want to make pages
each page complete (nothing will ever be completed — finished — this text that i want to write (one idea i’ve had is to make multilayers of parentheticals — brackets etc
layers — this is important — things layer on top of each other — i like programs like photoshop and indesign that have layers)
everything (when i say everything i mean all of the parts of the/this book that i intend to write or want to write or at least intend to try to write or want to try to write — etc)
fragments — i’ve been thinking about art — about fragments <something on Derrida and Genet here> — thinking about things like digital photos that can be cropped and manipulated so that each photograph can be dozens of photographs — and fragments / parts — of each photo (i should say (but i’m not saying i’m writing) i should write — i should use the word ‘image’ instead of photograph)