4/28_p3

i have 42 years of notes — i thought of going through them chronologically but realized that i don’t have time to put them all into a form that i want (a form i can live with for whatever time i have left to live — but maybe i’ll never be able to decide) i don’t have time for them all so going through them chronologically would leave out the last years and that wouldn’t be representative (<re words and de words> — i don’t want conventional punctuation — i don’t like commas and periods <cf g stein> so i need to think of some set of punctuations and use it consistently — but i’ve never been able to be consistent)
so i thought i could go through the notes and find the ‘better’ ones but then i thought that that wouldn’t be representative either — that the text of the notes is some incoherent [mess] and that it’s important to get the shit notes in also (i don’t know why but that seems important to me although probably not a good way to write — whatever that means — good bad ugly beautiful — it’s not about any of that
so i decided that i could go through them randomly — but they are organized into files and if i randomized all of the dates i would have to keep jumping from file to file (files folders piles stacks layers)
so i decided to cut the text into one month blocks (cutting is an important concept <cf burroughs> images can be cut up text can be cut up — taken apart — torn apart — fragmented)
so i used a spreadsheet to make a random organization of all of the months (but that was two years ago (the time frame of these notes is absurd) and i have a lot of months that need to be fit into the sequence — but the idea is to work with one month of notes at a time

(concepts — infinity absurdity — my projects are absurd — there are too many choices — too much material etc etc
infinity projects and absurdity projects — most of them are both)

these words could be arranged in an infinite number of words — i like lining up words — taking words like deciding or decided in the preceding (but they don’t have to be preceding if the text is [re]arranged) text (what are they — they’re not paragraphs — i think of text blocks as being larger units) fragments — then arranging the words so that the words decided deciding etc line up on the page (should i make an example here)
the problem with ideas like that is that they would require html / css structures that i may not be able to do