mornings are terrible —
everything disgusts me
things annoy me

remnants of nightmares i can’t get rid of
fragments of beautiful dreams i can’t recover —
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i need to go to costco & don’t want to
i need to walk the dogs & don’t want to —

necessities without desires —

things coming from amazon — they will not make things better —
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? one more try — get organized —
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can i talk — to K — can i say what i feel — what are the constraints — what are the ultimata — the consequences —

le con — the sequences

what follows — from what —