8/17

why do i dislike doing things — auto inspection — i always wait too long —

how much good art never gets finished — would my work that i didn’t do have been good art —
do i care — does anyone — walk in darkness — all the empty people — nothingness on nothingness — emptiness on emptiness

can i do this —

tried listening to debussy quartet but couldn’t — back to walk in darkness —

make a page of fragments that i can keep changing —

set goals — like — decide on page layouts — decide on colors fonts etc —

gather things together — scan notebooks so i can find them by date

an introduction that moves forward in time — layers — commentary —

up too early — i want to sleep but it’s almost time to feed the dogs — our schedule sucks — why do i go on — [like this]

8/18

another bad morning — a desire to just do nothing — a fatigue i can’t shake — physical and mental tiredness
i think i’ll just quit writing but i can’t make that step —
all the things i have — all the writing all the images — what for — why

music — 'levitation' a very good album — i was thinking that it might not be — most of what i’ve got recently has been good — kalidia a little disappointing — doesn’t have the depth of other things —
saariaho and hausswolff i haven’t listened to yet —